Judul di atas terdengar amat pengecut. Hal itu yang membuat saya malu. Since my ex asked me to find other, I really didn't want to do it. I still remember what happened, It drives me crazy. Until i have this crush on someone.
Actually for the first time i met him, i really hate him. I don't know why. Perhaps i saw him with my eye, not my eyes. Not long after that, i feel like everybody's starting to talk about him. It made me confused, so i was going to look him from the other side. The unpredictable thing appears. I said that he has a good management. He brings himself well. He can be crazy, wise, silly, smart, etc. Then, the more i looked at him, the more i got things from him. I was getting closer with him. That was the most beautiful part.
Until i know the truth that he had related with someone. oh my god !!! i hate this so much. I hate why a men are very weak on their ayes. I hate why i don't know bout this from the first time, so the situation still let me hate him. now? it's hard to let him go with that girl.
That boy is the first boy that i gave a gift for him on his hariburung. He had given many colors in my life. from the bottom of my heart, i don't want to give up and try to tell what i feel to him. but i was juat a dream. in fact, i have braveness, but 100 bravenesses is needed to do it. so where i must find the 99 bravenesses? I can't face the real and the impacts.
I still want to make a little chit chat with him, laugh together, etc. i am worried if i tell that i love him, everything's changing. Like what i feel before with my ex. I don't want to repeat the bad stuff like that anymore.
So now, i will let him go even it's hard. I like happy ending even the ending isn't mine. I put my white flag for the war. I hope i can be dandelion, so we all will be happy together. Amin.
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